Lay Em Down

A lack of motivation, an inability to focus has brought me back to this page once again. Who would have thought that writing things down could free my mind temporarily? Not really, but it definitely brings some sort of meaning to this. One way to pretend I've accepted it.
The good news is I have been given comfort by my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Last night was the first time I was actually alone since Sunday and it was terrifying at first. But I picked up my guitar, and began praising God despite this storm. In this spontaneous worship session I felt His spirit moving in me, weeping with me. Putting beautiful words on my heart to use in an already awesome song. Bringing me face to face with the Creator of the universe.

After this I spent some time reading His word. The verse John 3:16 came to my mind after reading some of Isaiah. So I ventured over. Now, I know its such a cliche verse, but its got so much packed into it. I was curious to read what came after. And Jesus is the one who says, "For God so loved the world that he sent His one and only Son...." but what John says at the end of the chapter speak even more loudly.
"Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God’s wrath remains on them." Now the importance of verse 16 cannot be expressed by mortal man, but the words of the apostle scream louder than anything that could ever leave my lips. Whoever rejects Jesus, will not see life but face the wrath of God. I am no biblical scholar by any means. I've read it way less than I should. But I know that when we've seen the wrath of God in the past it hasn't been pretty. And even though I am a believer and I know that because of the words of John 3:16 I will avoid this wrath, the thought of it still makes me sick. Not because I am skeptical of my faith. It is the only certainty in my life, and it will always be the only certainty. But because I have met people in the past, I have spent time with them. Yet I failed to share this awesome, terrifying news. Awesome that all it takes is faith and a simple prayer to be saved and get new life, but terrifying because ignoring God has cataclysmic consequences.
It is my prayer that despite the fact I don't always share my faith, that somehow God would use my life and how I live it to show them how incredible He is. How wonderful His life and His love are! And how much it changes absolutely everything.