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Am I the only person who feels a sharp pain in his chest and hopes it something life threatening? Seriously I see everything people go through, and don't get me wrong it sucks that they have to go through some awful things, but I oddly wish something like that would happen to me. If only for a good story. Because I am messed up in more ways than anyone I know. So last night I realized that I truly am the worst laser tagger I have ever known. So much for the possibility of joining the military. Last place in the team game, last place in the final free for all(albeit by choice). I think laser tag sucks and is a waste of money and energy. That was what I concluded last night. I have come up with a few conclusions recently, it is rather intense. For example I need to get away by myself to a very quiet place for at least a day. And I want to with all my heart do something with music for my life or as long as physically able. There were others too, but I will not burden those of you out there with them. Saaaaay Whaaaaat?

Not so deep thoughts on a saturday night

So Saturday night, all alone, and pretty much is awesome. Just thought I'd throw that out there. Today was a messed up day. Not really in a bad way. But it was messed up. I was just thinking, well for a couple days. But I was watching a movie and the term "Knight in Shining Armor" came up. So then I was thinking what that would look like nowadays. I came up blank, so if anyone ever reads this and has an idea please fill me in. Extreme Praise is on, thats pretty much the highlight of my day. Always is. That was a lie. My apologies. The con with the program is that it is almost always the same songs. Undeniable just came on. Totally heard it last week at this exact time. That is why we need to start a permanent ExtremePraise station here. I really can't wait to graduate so I can get a job, save some money, and go away. The going away part will probably come after I go to school, but still I know that with what I want to do I will probably end up far away, which will be bittersweet. But I think I really need a change, maybe not that drastic but I need a change/wake up call quick or I could get trapped in something I don't want to. Yea Classic Crime. I wonder if he really does have the Coldest Heart... I think I do. If not it is pretty close, anyways I am just blabbing now. You know how sometimes you are talking in a group of people and you wonder if anyone is listening? Well that is how I feel when I write blogs it is pretty intense.

whoa. chills. anyone else, chills?

So this week life pretty much slapped me in the face. Not in a bad way. Ummm, youth band got up and running. Pretty quickly as a matter of fact. Monday we practiced, Wednesday we worshipped at study. It was so good. And then Friday was the All-Nighter, which was even more amazing. Bowling was pretty lame, but it usually is, I just tried to have some fun. After getting back from that, I warmed up with Dan and felt so bad. So we prayed for the longest time and God gave us the strength to get through it, I'd say it was a success. The game of soccer later destroyed my knees, they are pretty bruised up, but it was fun. And the rest of the night was pretty much hanging out, which I don't think I've ever had so much fun doing. So yeah looks like I'm going to start getting busy with this band stuff and whatever which will be totally amazing. And yes, I have run out of things to say.