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Am I the only person who feels a sharp pain in his chest and hopes it something life threatening? Seriously I see everything people go through, and don't get me wrong it sucks that they have to go through some awful things, but I oddly wish something like that would happen to me. If only for a good story. Because I am messed up in more ways than anyone I know. So last night I realized that I truly am the worst laser tagger I have ever known. So much for the possibility of joining the military. Last place in the team game, last place in the final free for all(albeit by choice). I think laser tag sucks and is a waste of money and energy. That was what I concluded last night. I have come up with a few conclusions recently, it is rather intense. For example I need to get away by myself to a very quiet place for at least a day. And I want to with all my heart do something with music for my life or as long as physically able. There were others too, but I will not burden those of you out there with them. Saaaaay Whaaaaat?