Tell me where our time went, was it well spent?

Paramore. Good times. I hate not being able to sleep. It is just a fact. I am a deep sleeper. But the problem is I have difficulty falling asleep. I can't just lay there either. I learned that a long time ago. I cannot live inside of my head. It is a horrible thing. So I turn to How I Met Your Mother episodes. Boy, am I glad I have all of the seasons on DVD. I think tonight is a movie night though. It seems like you are up for less time if you fall asleep watching a movie that is an hour and a half, than falling asleep while watching your 5th episode of a television show. Anyways that is all. Shout out to Leah, whom I love dearly.

Depth

People live in fear. It's just a fact of life. Simple. Why? I have no idea. I think it is because I live in fear, too. And that is something I have never wanted to admit. What am I afraid of? Not the dark, or spiders, or anything miniscule like that. People who do live in fear and avoid the small things bother me because they waste so much of their life getting out of the way of possible situations that would be nothing had they not over-thought the worst case scenarios, which never happen anyways. My fears. One, that God does exist (which I honestly believe) and that I was not what he expected of me, and he is going to punish me for the things I did and did not do that I knew I should have or should not have done. But I believe he loved me enough to send his Son to die for me. How freaking crazy is that? The King of the Universe dying for Jonathan Zielke, and everyone else. I don't get it. I don't know why that is one of my fears. Maybe because I don't give him all of my life, like I was called to do. Because when it really comes down it, I can't even satisfy myself, how can I even begin to satisfy this Creator, impossible. Is his love really enough to cover the fact that I am a horrible person and could never live up to even the slightest of standards. That's what I have trouble dealing with. I know I can never escape his love and his grace and his mercy but why do I live in fear that I will?

Something salty, something sweet

Don't tell anyone, but I think I may love my girlfriend. Well if you know me well enough you probably knew that already. Leah Fedorko is her name, and she has captured my heart in every single way. And I'm not just saying that because I know only 2 people write this blog, and she is one of them. Everything about her is just flat out amazing. The way she laughs at my jokes; the way she laughs AT ME, and it makes me feel no worse about myself; her laugh is pretty awesome and is so contagious, except when I am deliberately not laughing with her to make her feel bad, which she probably doesn't know, but usually I am laughing on the inside, and yes I know I am a jerk; the fact that she can make me smile just by being herself and being with me; the fact that I can totally imagine spending the rest of my life with her, and can't imagine spending it without her. I could go on and on but I know Adam is thinking, keep this up and I'm changing the webpage. But I do love her to death. So, I bought a Macbook Pro, and this is my first of many blog entries to be done on it. So music recording, here I come. I am excited. And Leah and I can watch movies on here, woo. The youth band is still under my wing, if that's how I would say it. It has lost half of its members, and has one possible newbie, so that should be interesting to see how God works through that. Anyways I am off, its past bedtime. Keep on coming back, I should update more regularly. Til next time, oh and I need a new sign off line. If you have any suggestions, feel free. Peace!

Perfection

Leah Bethany Fedorko love's you Jonathan David Zielke!!

sorry for hacking ;)

Lack of Title

Boredem, and fear of sleep has brought me to this point. I hate days that contrast themselves. I mean I had a great day at work, which rarely happens. I also had a good hang out with a friend. Then night rolls around, time to start winding down. Make one phone call only to make the day all just seem like a waste. Happiness is messed up. How come no one is happy these days?I mean frick, suck it up. Life will be nothing like you want it to be if you don't look at it the right way. You can't let one thing get you down. I hope that made sense. I mean, maybe I'm just easy to please. Kraft Dinner makes my day sometimes, and I love it that way. I don't even know where this is going, but my advice is, if you are bitter or pissed off, be that way yourself. Do not take it out on others, or bring them into your bitterness, it does rub off and it just makes life miserable for them and even more miserable for you. Yes that was very poorly constructed, but its way past my bedtime.

Did I stutter?

So the first time I saw Mean Girls I thought it was pretty rad. I enjoyed it, and I had no shame in saying that which was new to me. But that feeling has faded recently. Maybe it is because I have seen it too many bloody times, or maybe it is because I have yet to meet someone who did not like Mean Girls and I just want to be the first. Long story short, my favorite chick movie is A Cinderella Story, not sure why I brought that up. Probably cause only 3 people will read this, and two of them are reading it as I type. Side note, what is with popcorn and movies? Why do they go together? I'm sure I've asked this before, but I actually think I will look it up right now, I'll let you all know what I find, PEaceEEEE.
Before I go though I need to give a shout out to my g-friend Leah, She is the best. Plain and simple. Pretty much makes my life awesome to the extreme and I love her so very much and can't wait to ... well nevermind. I also love Jesus.
Take that Saddam!

woo (yes, that was sarcastic)

SO lately I have had the strangest obsession with Kelly Clarkson. I have had I do not hookup in my head for a week. And am listening to it right now. Yes, that is gay.. I'm eating chinese food and hoping my head does not explode. Just thought of a great title for this blog, and it is from that song I love oh so much, but I'm not going to put it for fear of being castrated. I love jesus. And I am going to bed. I am eating for the first time in 9 hours. Somedays I'm not even awake for 9 hours, so thats a lot. Hmm.

Surprise.

In the last couple days I've checked my bank account to see if I have been paid yet, because I don't know when I will get money for working. So long story short I checked Sunday had 57 cents. Today I have 59 cents. If that two cent increase is from working, wow I totally thought I worked harder than that. Anyways I'm loving life right now. All that is wrong is that I'm planning for Wednesday nights Lifegroups and I have no great ideas. I thought it would all be done by now. Hmm. Anyways I thought it be a shocker to have to blogs so close together. For those of you that are interested. JON FIN OUT!

The month of April saw zero entries

Breaking News, one week later....
ok so I couldn't pick one title
so I put the second one as the first sentence. I kind of like it better than the first one. I could have just made my lack of blogging in April an observation in this text box instead of a title whatever. So the late news is that I have a job. Working at Dollar Giant. Yay me! I have 7 days under my belt. More to come. Hopefully many more. Ducks won their playoff series. I'm happy. I celebrated my one year with Leah. Awesome! Great year that was. This year may challenge that for best ever. But, I have had a trend in my life that has been each year is better than the last. I'm tired. Not really though, I just want to go watch last nights episode of the Office cause I haven't. Anyways I hope I blog again soon. And that they don't suck like this one. I lie awake at night, or have thoughts in the day that I will blog about something cool, and sweet thoughts and rant, but when I start typing, they never happen. gotta love how that works. Forgive my punctuation those of you who care. See ya

Nothing Ever Happens Like It Does In The Movies

I think the sooner we get over that TRUTH the easier it is to live life. With that in mind, I am learning very difficultly and quickly that there are a lot of things that are out of our control. We sometimes have to sit back and let God take care of things. This is a hard lesson I've been learning and it just keeps getting more immense, but God is showing me that I need to cast all my worries and things that are out of my control onto Him and He will take care of them. I've been growing closer and closer to God recently and I'm so excited. I can't wait to see what He has in store for my life. But as I predicted, He's teaching me to stick with Him when things aren't as easy as they've always been. Sometimes, like now, I have literally no idea how to deal with certain parts of my life and I have to throw it all on Him, even though it's not easy at all. My apologies for the lengthy hiatus. I'm off for today to get a long, thoughful walk in, and some food because the last thing I consumed orally was a ketchup chip last night at my awesome girlfriend Leah's house. Anyways: Til Next Time.

The blog that started in a computer lab

I am so tired and I don't know why. What do I seriously have to be tired about? Besides the fact I was up until 230 last night. I got my haircut today.. Still don't know if I like it or not. Tomorrow marks mine and Leah's 10 monthaversary. Yes, crazy. I know. It has only been 10 months, and also it has already been 10 months. I look at it both ways. It has been pretty awesome. Best 10 months of my life, by far. I still don't have a job. I have gone 10 months unemployed with a girlfriend, strange. Never thought that could happen. Not that money has anything to do with it, nor should it. Anyways, I wil try to check in soon. Oh, side note, re-took the L test. I am now Learner certified, yet again. Here's to getting my N this year. See ya. Happy Wednesday!

Hello World

I have not done this for a few weeks. Let's see if I remember how to do it. In today's NEWS Jonathan is currently sitting at Burnett Fellowship handling phone calls. It is 4 minutes to 10 AM, and he has had one call in his one hour on the job. Facebook got boring 20 minutes ago. Fortunately he has an ipod to keep him entertained. And the Dwight Schrute Bobblehead is amusing him very much as well. Jonathan still doesn't have a job. Although he has spent more time than usual looking and applying. His inexperience at a younger age is holding him back. So for the time being, I shall sit and chew my stride gum, which, by the way, is starting to lose its flavor. If you had not noticed, Jonathan has not stopped talking about himself in third person. Til Next Time.

Nail Biting

Yesterday the Zielke boys, including me, trecked down with the Grandparents to the USA to spend our Christmas money. Many of these moments were firsts for me. First time at a Washington Outlet mall. First time in an American Wal-mart (ours are better by the way). First time in a target (great music selection compared to anywhere else we ventured). First time using my passport! First time using my almost ipod on the road watching Office episodes. Anyways I bought a couple'o sweaters and some t shirts and 2 cds and finally got a copy of Word on the Street, which is a pretty sweet Bible paraphrase. Anyways I spent like 50 of 150 dollars. So I have 100 left to exchange and spend here, which I am looking forward to. Anyways that was my fun Tuesday in America. I think I like it way better here in Canada. Weird how we are so close but I still can't see myself there. Fingers crossed. Later.

A Simple Seed

With today being New Years Day I figured time to recap the last year. This year I will start off with my favorite album. The best of 2008 was Never Going Back to Ok by the Afters. Pure brilliance. Since my favorite moments, there are too many to pick from I'm just going to say Leah was my highlight. That way there are like 45 moments to choose from. I graduated this year with the best class ever. I still didn't get a job! Yes, I am aware that I am retarted. I saw the Foo Fighters last January. And the Iron Maiden in June. I FINALLY asked Leah out, took me a while. Still with her, and couldn't be happier. I got a new guitar as a grad/birthday present. She is a beaut. I started leading worship at church. That's been a fairly big step. I still don't know what I want to do with my life, as far as schooling goes. So what does Two-thousand and nine have in store? Well first goal, get a freaking job. Besides that I'm not too worried. Oh I will get my L and I will have my N before 2010. Not so I can drive to the olympics, if I go to anything it will be sledge hockey when the specials come to town. So some of my resolutions include the two aboves. Also I want to read the bible through in a year. So I will start tonight! When I turn nineteen my first drink will be the Tootsie Roll (kahlua and rootbeer).I had more but I can't remember them right now. Anyways Happy New Year all.