Let's get this started. . .

So I have experienced the phenomenonof Deja Vu an unhealthy amount of times recently. Multiple times daily, actually. So I looked into it and the only thing that makes sense is that I have anxiety, but I don't think I have anxiety. I don't exactly know what it is or what would cause it but I still don't think I have that. Anywayyys, I'm feeling incredibly awesome. Relient K's Must Have Done Something RIght just came on EXXtreme Praise. Made me smile. IT brings me joy haha. Always does, every single time I listen to it, over 200 now I think. Music is so amazing. I can't put it into words. The fact that I can listen to soo many amazing songs, and then learn to play them on guitar, and I can sing along. Even better, I can try writing my own stuff. The amount of genres and artists are astounding as well. Not to mention CONCERTS!!! Honestly it's tough to find anything better than music. I would love so much to find a career in music. That would be amazing. But it may not be for me, I will throw it into my evergrowing list of possible options. Honestly the amount of careers out there, and the amount of pressure put on us by people and what not is kinda pathetic. I mean you are gonna be working the rest of your life, for the most part, and you are being pressured into making a decision of what you will spend the rest of your life doing before you even try the job. Not to mention the cost of educating so you can have an oppurtunity at getting a job in the field. And the job isn't even guaranteed. That's my words for the day, night, week, since I won't get another oppurtunity to write for a while. Til Next Time!

Roller Coaster....

So today was one of those really messed up days. It was one of those ones where it was totally awesome at one point and amazingly terrible at another. It was one of those days where you have all of that stuff on your mind that you usually unload on someone else, even though it will mean nothing in the long run, but if you don't tell someone about it you will be eaten up inside. Well at the moment this thing inside of me is really starting to get to me. Anyways that is about all I feel comfortable saying on here. I hit up church for the first time since housesitting this past week. The music was a total letdown. You can't have an amazing guitarist like the one we have and get him to play mandolin and acoustic, I was bored. Drumming was great though. Yes, this thing I have to talk about is so horrible that I am talking about the music in church in my blog. I should cut short before I say something really messed up. Til next time.

A simple phone call. A conversation with someone you love. It's amazing how that can change you. It's happened to me twice in the last couple days. Feeling a little down only to receive a phone call from a super sweet family member. I love that. Talking to Dan last night helped that, cept I wasn't that down, I was just bored. Today I was feeling bad about myself and laying on the couch when my uncle Chris phoned from Minnesota. I talked to him for about 10 minutes. It was awesome catching up and even better he comes home in 5 weeks! I can't wait to see him. It's been since like christmas. And he's like one of the coolest people in my life and someone I look up to. That pretty much made my day and made me feel good inside. Talking to him about how God is affecting his life was pretty awesome too. Well that's about all I feel like saying now. Til Next Time!

Busted.

So I think I'm being shown something. You see I like to have everything planned out. Not everything but most things. Anyways, since school ended and summer vacation began most things I plan always seem to fall through. The most recent was plans to get a break from housesitting and spend a night in my own bed. Those fell through and I'm doomed to spend another night alone. At least the Foo Fighters put on the most amazing performance at Live Earth. I haven't slept since it started. They have nothing to do with each other. Lack of sleep and deja vu must be connected somehow because I've had it 3 times since the last time I slept. I also haven't eaten a meal yet today. I had a bowl of fruit loops, but I don't think that counts. My family purchased a new vehicle today, so I am told. Black 2001 ford windstar. I'm quite excited about that. It doesn't have a CD player though. I can't believe how long I've been awake. I don't think I will be able to do that again if I tried. Unless I had someone help keep me awake. Then maybe I could to it again. I say I a whole lot when I write these thingies. Anyways I'm sure you've lost interest by now. So have I. Til next time. hopefully.

It Could Be Time

So I've gotten a lot of alone time this week. And when I get alone time I think quite a bit. I've figured out some stuff about myself. I think I know what I'd generally like to do with my life. I don't know how to accomplish it or if it's what I'm led to do, but I'm quite excited to have an idea. I've played guitar quite a bit this week too. Looking at songs, it's easier for me to just read them and play along now. Most songs I know all the chords for which excites me very much. I've come a long way in 7 months. Walking as well, I've done a lot of that. Wal Mart, Mall, Bookstore, Theatre, Park. I'm loving it. I havent fallen asleep before 1 oclock yet, I freaking hate it. I've gone to bed before 12 twice too. I should get that checked out. And I've only been up before 11 once. Even though I set the alarm every day. Anyways it's Friday and I'm starting to get lonely. Tomorrow will be my first human contact with someone I know since Monday morning. I'm quite excited. And if that falls through I will have to wait til Sunday. But then I will have someone to talk to until this sitting of the house ends. I love making food too. It's awesome when you only have to cook for yourself and not 5 people. I've had some great food so far. Eating by myself is kinda sketch though. I kinda like it, yet kinda don't. I've resorted to MSN to keep me sane. It's worked sometimes. Today's one of those day's where I feel like I should do something. So I'm gonna go do something. Til Next Time.

Looks like home

So today, I'm trapped in Abby. All alone. No one bothering me. Guitar amp can go as loud as I choose. It's gonna be a good week. Anyhoo I started off the day early, 8 oclock. Said bye bye to the family going away, and then I was alone. I'm loving it right now. Youtube works on here! Watching tons of Relient K and Switchfoot. It makes me wish I was going to CreationFest. Also today I emptied my email box. There were a couple emails in there that I said I would never delete, yet I did. Throwing away a few more memories. I've done that a lot lately. It makes me feel surprisingly good. Anyways life in Abby is pretty boring. I think I'm gonna head over to the mall. Til next time.