Expectations.

Frazzled. I thought in writing that title a blog would just flow from my fingertips but it just got me into thinking and now I'm here twenty minutes later with nothing but the word frazzled. It is literally the best word to describe my feelings. I have virtually gone from every angle of the perspective to another and back again. It's been like one of those line graphs and the higher the line goes the better. It bounces between the bottom and the almost bottom, and just when the line makes an attempt to move anywhere close to feeling great, it drops right back to the bottom. Now I've been honest with people, and completely understand it is all entirely my doing. I think I've heard stop being so hard on yourself like 4 times. But I'm not going to. There is no reason to. And the more I think about it, the more I realize how much worse I was. If I'm not my harshest critic, I'll never amount to anything. And I don't even think as low of myself as possible. I am sure there is more that I've done that I don't realize. I'm sure of it. But if I weren't such an awful person, there would be no need for a saviour. So at least I am in need of that. There is a positive.